Sunday, January 3, 2010


11 followers ... my favorite number :) A lucky start to 2010?

This entry comes a few days late, but it's merited all the same. I don't exactly feel that 2010 is some sort of new beginning for me or whatnot; 2009 wasn't all that disastrous, was it? The transition into a new year does, however, give me pause. I'm not one to center a blog around anything that's too personal: somehow it seems cliche. But here I am attempting to give my blog a little soul for once... I'm going to list out some of my thoughts/musings, some resolutions, some not, in no particular order below.

- I know I've said things like this before and most certainly will again, but over the past four years of my college experience, if I have learned anything, anything at all, it is that I know so little. I am humbled by my youth and the span of life laid out in front of me. Figuring out life, love, and everything in between is not so much the goal as it is the journey. I would hope that by now I would've developed a relatively sound understanding of myself and my environ, and also an exacting eye for my own shortcomings, but I know that I am far from without fault and that my naivete fails to know itself.

- To expound on the idea of imperfection - everyone is a product of some incredible, miraculous genetic design, furthered along by the environment and unique conditions of his or her upbringing. I see in myself both positive and negative traits inherited from my parents (whether this be a greater result of nature or nurture is an argument I will not touch upon now). I think it's incredibly important to look past a person's shortcomings in order see the greater good. Perhaps my naivete seeps in here... I think there is beauty in all people. We're human and with this often comes the senseless (and usually mislead) judgment of one another. Imperfection is a beautiful thing, but so few seem to realize it.

- The grass always looks greener on the other side, does it not? As my college career comes to a close, I've often found myself wondering if I'm going down the right path, if maybe it would've been better to choose a different major, if I should have handled some things differently... I'm beginning to realize now that I just have to let go. My own lawn, metaphorically speaking, is ripe with potential, and regrets aren't worth my time.

To sum it up - I'm a far from perfect person with a lot of learning and figuring out left to do! My excitement about my final semester of college is tempered by a fear of not ending up happy... wherever it is that I end up. Things are always changing and can be changed further still. With that, I resolve to be more carefree, compassionate, and open. I'm so blessed to be where I am - I'm realizing this more and more everyday.

Happy New Year, y'all!
<3 c.


Jonny Stranger said...

Things are gonna get easier.

Nicole said...

This seems a bit reminiscent of our old livejournals.

christine marie said...

Did you read the preface? This blog is hardly a personal affair, but in light of new year's, a little reflection was in order... Livejournal was much more the teenage, angst sop bucket. This, I would hope, is measurably more mature :)